Mood:  amorous
Now Playing: Where You Are - Jessica Simpson & Nick Lachey
I wrote my political stats midterm this morning and I don't think I did too badly. I know that I had to have at least passed it. I came home and watched The Lion King 2 and Here On Earth with Jocelyn. It doesn't matter how many times I watch that movie, I always cry at the end lol. I'm in a pretty good mood today.
I'm going to try to get myself to get some work done tonight instead of procrastinating once again. But maybe after I redo my nails... lol. I never thought i'd say this, but I actually like them red.
Valentines day is coming up soon....don't tell anyone but I'm actually looking forward to it...only a little! lol don't think that I've gone soft or anything. I just miss brian and that's when I get to see him next *wink*. I know you're probably thinking "sure sure" lol. I'm still trying to figure out something to do for him for valentines day. I have a little gift and something else planned but I want to do something nice for him that shows him that he's important to me and that I care about him a lot. Any suggestions???
I still can't believe that I'm going to be 20 years old on the 19th of this month. I remember when I was younger I used to think that 20 was so far away and now here it is! Scary!
Well I have to go do some work and hang out with the kids for a bit.

Mood:  not sure
Now Playing: Here Without You - 3 Doors Down
Yesterday didn't go as badly as anticipated after the power outage fiasco that happened yesterday morning. After seminar I spent the afternoon with Josh just wondering around and talking about stuff. It's crazy though... sometimes clarity and advice come from the oddest places. After discussing some things with Josh I started to kinda understand why I do them. However, if he had perhaps decided to talk to me and not have his eyes on my tits for most of the afternoon, that would've been nice. Apparantly I looked "The most amazing he's ever seen me" yesterday. It was a sweet compliment. He also told me that I should become an actress yesterday. I don't quite see it... I've been told that before but I just don't get it. He asked me again to move in with him next year... not too sure what I'm going to do. Josh wants me to move in with him and some of his friends, Danielle wants to live w/ me, as does Sarah and the people I'm living with at the moment also want me to come back here and live here again next year. I really don't know what I want to do...Josh is a good friend but it might be a little strange living with someone that loves my breasts that isn't my boyfriend lol. I like the place I'm living in at the moment but I dislike having to get up really early to go to class because it takes two buses to get there. I was hoping that writing this all out would help me to figure things out but it isn't. I need someone to use as a sounding board for this but there isn't really anyone to talk to. I'll figure it out eventually...

I guess I should attempt to motivate myself to get some more work done today although I'd really love to just do nothing today...Midterm on wednesday that I'm not even close to being prepared for...papers due soon...*sigh* Is it summer yet?

What A Night/Morning....
Mood:  irritated
Now Playing: Nothing
Arg! I woke up early again this morning because I can't sleep. Woke up to find that the power is dead in half of my room. Have a sneaking suspicion it was because I had my little space heater on last night because that's when I heard it go off. But that shouldn't have happened because it was the only thing on! So now I can't use my computer until later tonight when Jackie gets home. I think a fuse is dead or something. At the moment I'm using Jackie's computer to kill some time before I have to get ready for school. I could be doing some school work right now but who wants to do that soon after they wake up? Yeah, but back to the sleeping bit...I was having a difficult time getting some sleep last night. Some bozo called me at midnight asking for "Nigel" and I had just fallen asleep. I should call him back tonight at midnight and ask for bonehead. Then I woke up early this morning because I was having a bad dream which we all know is my favourite. My ear was itchy so I decided to scratch it and it was bleeding and it hurt like hell! Good morning! I'm up now! Hopefully this won't be an indication of how the rest of my day will go. I have class at 11-12 then again from 4-5 so hopefully I can motivate myself to get some more work done. I'm starting to feel the pressure of the deadlines coming up. I'm sure I'll have something better to write about tomorrow or perhaps later tonight should the power be restored to the half of my room... OMG! I just realized that my fridge might be out too! OOOOOOHHHH GOD Gotta go check that. I pray that it's still running!

First Entry
Mood:  hug me
Now Playing: Avril Lavigne - He Wasn't
Well, here it is. The very first entry. Today's been a pretty boring day. I spent most of my afternoon hanging out with James & Daryl which was fun though. It's sooo cold outside! I haven't been able to get warm all day. I can't wait until the summer.

I've come to the conclusion that I have a jealousy problem or something. This jealousy issue that I've been having has no basis. I trust my boyfriend and I don't have any problems with this girl I'm jealous of. Yet I'm jealous of her. I can't figure out why. No matter how much I think about it I can't pinpoint it. Yeah, they're moving in together next year but I trust him and I know that girls and guys can be just friends without having it develop into anything more. After hearing the story about what happened to her ex didn't help with this apparant paranoia that I have. I guess it should because after experiencing something like that you're less likely to do that to someone else because you know how much it hurts. Oh well, I'll get over it. I'm just a stupid girl lol.

Speaking of stupid girl, I've noticed that my self-confidence has taken a nose-dive. I have no idea what that's all about. Guess I just wasn't consciously reminding myself not to act like a needy weakling. Wow, way to start off this journal huh? I promise not all entries will be like this. :P